OK, so I am sitting here, ALONE!! Chad went to a birthday party at a Pool Hall, and I was not invited!! He said it was MEN only!!, so, that was at 7:00 and it is almost 10:00 now!!

When Chad and I got together, I only had a few **RULES** to live by:

1. NEVER cheat on the other person

2. NEVER leave the house without telling the other that you love them

3. NEVER go to a bar without the other person

Soooo, he did tell me he loved me when he left....... but as for #1.... not sure yet, and he broke number 3...... I was talking to my daughter, and she said "Mom, out of respect for you, he should have declined the invitation, since you weren't invited", then, talking to Chad's MOM..... she said the same thing!! Am I a ditz, or what?? I didn't think of it that way, I was more upset that he was going, without me, to a bar!! Meybe I did think of it that way.... it just didn't register, because I was so damned upset!!! AM so upset!!!! And............. to top it off.......... He would not leave me the truck, and take his Dad's truck, which he uses all the time..... and I am not ALLOWED to drive!!!! He didn't make sure I had enuff cigarettes to last the night, he KNEW we didn't have anything for me to fix to eat..... and did not offer to pick me anything up....... So I sit here, haven't eaten since yesterday, (not that I could right now anyways!!), and down to a few cig's.... and I am getting madder by the minute!!!!!!!! And.... he will be DRIVING home after drinking, even though I asked him not to!!!! and who knows when he will be home....... luckily for me, he wore a white shirt tonight, so I will be able to tell if anything went on!!! ;)

OK, enuff for now.... gotta go cry some more!

I luv guys!! thanks for letting me vent!!!!

Rae

oh rach.... i wish i was there ! sooooo sorry you're going through all this! I almost wish I were a fly on the wall at the bar.... I'd keep both eyes on him for you to make sure he was being a good boy!


{{{{HUGS}}}}

Scrappy

oh!! rae you deserve so much better. {{{{hugs}}}}}